Andrea's Entries
Not My Intentions
Episode 218 - Watch Webisode - Watch Andrea's Interview
So she drank because the house was stressful. I relapsed and she never once thought about bailing on me. I should have told Cordelia how I felt, but keep in mind I never wanted to hurt her. I wasn't condemning her to hell, I wasn't calling her a stupid b*tch. I was venting about my frustration for a friend I didn't know how to help. In my defense, this blog was made private and I didn't ever intend to post it or have Cordelia read it. I would never want to hurt her, she had been my best friend in the house. It really makes me sad, even though this happened so long ago because of just how hypocritical I was. The ramifications have yet to be seen.
I was really upset though about how things had been going. I wouldn't say Cordelia is a serious alcoholic but I do think under stress she tends to drink more. The problem was that she would drink and then it was like everything she was keeping inside and hiding from the world would pour forth and explode in a ball of fury and emotion. Cordelia always acted confident and composed and I looked up to her. When she started to get really upset it scared me because she was my like my role model and seeing her vulnerable made me feel insecure. In hindsight I should have just been there for her and not talked to her problems with anyone but her.