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My Choices Haunt Me
Episode 219 - Watch Webisode - Watch Andrea's Interview
It just shows how she was really trying to be the bigger person and stay a good friend even when I wasn't.
I need to make this clear... I wasn't judging Cordelia for her drinking. I think its fine to drink if you have fun and don't get hurt, and that wasn't my frustration with her. I was upset about the things she would say and how she would act when she was drunk. Cordelia would make these statements that scared me and I didn't know how to deal with. I was worried about her, but I also was being shady by not being honest with her. I should have been. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about that house and the choices I made there. It haunted me for a while. I am finally starting to get over it, but seeing it all again, especially how careless and hypocritical I was has been really hard. People who watch like to hate on me, when they have no idea how, when and why most of the stuff happened. All they know is what the editors have crafted into the story. Viewers don't see me as even a person, they think I am just this evil backstabber. Well, trust me, I don't think too highly of my behavior on the show, but I also know that is not the only side of me. I know who I am. I know that I am doing the best that I can and if that's not good enough well too bad.