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My blood was boiling
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I mean, going through it was hell, and knowing it was going to be on national television I think made everyone act worse.
Now the blog I wrote after Josh's trip was harsh, but I was f*cking pissed at them. The episode with him didn't even show how rude they were. They totally treated him and me like sh*t and I didn't understand why, what I had done, and where it was coming from. So yeah, I was venting. I felt like they were all negative and being hateful and unfair. And I said so in my PRIVATE blog b*tch I used to put my feelings down and sort through my emotions. After Josh left I realized that they were not my friends. And I was right. But whatever, it's in the past and I think they reacted in a way that is normal for them. But I am not a tough b*tch and it was hell for me. They were being cruel for something that wasn't even about them.
It was really hard for me to stay around and try to make things right. The reason I didn't go to the ranch is pretty self-explanatory. Cordelia said she needed a few days to cool off, I figured I would give it to her. Remember at this time I didn't know Cordelia had known about the blog for a while. I thought she had just found it the previous day and was all hurt and sad about it. I didn't know that making me miserable was exactly what she wanted.