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My blood was boiling
Episode 221 - Watch Webisode - Watch Interview
If I had known she was doing everything on purpose I may have gone anyway, but probably not. I knew no one wanted me there and I knew it would be awful and awkward. I was damned if I did, damned if I didn't. The meeting was a lot more than was shown. I got really pissed watching it when Cordelia started saying how I was judging her for drinking. I wasn't judging her. I was writing it out of concern and she was already getting over it, so to make me feel like sh*t at that meeting just to show everyone she wasn't being "walked over," was such twisted crap. If anyone in that house hadn't walked all over her it was me. But she couldn't go after anyone else, and I was in the dog house so the logical step was to show her alpha femaleness by attacking me. Whatever dude. Tanisha was the only one who really accepted my apology. I was truly and deeply sorry. She has a big heart and fortunately she knew that people make mistakes and mess up.
Because I had a similar experience years ago and I ran, I decided that as hard as it was I was going to stick around. I figured I had done this to myself and I needed to make things better and if Cordelia had to be mad at me, then I shouldn't run from it. But after I apologized everything in the house was just bullsh*t. The girls should have let it go, but everything became a source of contention. I knew I that no matter what I did it wasn't going to make things better.